Windows in My life

Monday, May 26, 2014

Play Ball!!!

TICKET!!!

The glass doors

Field seating!

Almost to my seat
close to home as I can get for now!

SEAT!!!

Just close to the players. Almost can touch them...

View of Panda

more players



still more players

Lou Seal

Can't go to a game with out a picture of the Bunker


My Traditional picture of the SF Giants Clock

Romo!

#13

Good game. A W tonight

Pitcher for the Twins
His autograph

Suzuki's autograph!


Sunday, May 25, 2014

Life as I know it

I may not be the best of words and sentence structure however its better to speak from the heart than to not and feel weird that you didn't.

Post separation and now post divorce has left me in an emotional void. Leaving me to ponder what was the wrong thing that I did, he did and how the relationships that I have with men, friends with benefits or just friends right now are being shaped with the views I have of my self right now.

My kids are the ones I value the most when it comes to this dynamic. They are my world. I will not introduce them to guys i date unless its becoming obviously clear that he will become a more stable part of my life ie getting married, or going to stick around and be faithful to me and them till the end of his life. However they will know about them because they are a part of me. I am very protective and they know they come first and not second. I put them above all.

However it makes me side eye a few men in general. Not that its bad just becoming more picky. Really would like a commitment from some one however I know that its not going to happen that soon so I better just commit to myself.

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

My oh My

Where has the time gone? I'll be honest, haven't written because of my insane schedule.

Single mom and going to school for my dream job.

Yup my dream job. I don't know why I waited so long to do this. Maybe I thought I wouldn't be happy with what I really wanted to do instead of what others wanted me to do.

I have all ready won scholarship money from Crispin Cider by baking a sweet deep fried apple rings. Let me tell you something it was AWESOME! Waiting for them to post the announcement some where however I will get off my lazy duff and post the recipes (yep 3) on here.

enough on the first day.

Friday, September 27, 2013

Moving on

It is hard to move on when your heart is broken.

It is hard to live a life that is only half of what you thought your life was going to be.

It is hard to move on when your heart is broken.

It is hard to live in the past yet search for the future brighter than that of the past.

It is hard to move on when your heart is broken.

It is necessary to move on.

It is necessary to pick up the pieces of your heart and glue it back together knowing that it will never be the same.

It is necessary to move on.

It is necessary to live a life worth living no matter how hard it is to put one foot in front of the other.

It is necessary to move on.

It is necessary to feel happy again in order to feel another life come into being.

With that I am moving on.

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

My eldest daughter is lost!!

My cat Bindi went out the door yesterday afternoon. I've had her since she was a kitten. I hope with all my heart she comes home safe in the next few days.

please let me know if you are in South san Francisco and see this cat! 415-613-0145

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Getting By

I feel like I am getting by. Not having some one to be there to fill in about the day I had, not being able to have some one to shed a tear with.

Feel like I have to get a dog right now. The cats would hate it though. 

Having an empty side of the bed is just a reminder of what life should be, not what it is right now. I have been working on myself to get stronger. I have and I don't want to cry that often anymore. All I feel is emptiness. I need to fill myself with happiness, joy and love. 

But right now I am getting by. Just getting by.

Monday, August 5, 2013

Shame

A lot of things happened in the short amount of time I have been off the blog radar. I have been trying to find a job like a mad lady. I finally found one, well two or three. First off I am a qualified Farmers Agent, and I am going to be an Origami Owl Sales person, and soon hopefully some thing that may pan out to be a good part time job. Going to be tight lipped about this until it comes through.