Windows in My life

Friday, September 27, 2013

Moving on

It is hard to move on when your heart is broken.

It is hard to live a life that is only half of what you thought your life was going to be.

It is hard to move on when your heart is broken.

It is hard to live in the past yet search for the future brighter than that of the past.

It is hard to move on when your heart is broken.

It is necessary to move on.

It is necessary to pick up the pieces of your heart and glue it back together knowing that it will never be the same.

It is necessary to move on.

It is necessary to live a life worth living no matter how hard it is to put one foot in front of the other.

It is necessary to move on.

It is necessary to feel happy again in order to feel another life come into being.

With that I am moving on.

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

My eldest daughter is lost!!

My cat Bindi went out the door yesterday afternoon. I've had her since she was a kitten. I hope with all my heart she comes home safe in the next few days.

please let me know if you are in South san Francisco and see this cat! 415-613-0145

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Getting By

I feel like I am getting by. Not having some one to be there to fill in about the day I had, not being able to have some one to shed a tear with.

Feel like I have to get a dog right now. The cats would hate it though. 

Having an empty side of the bed is just a reminder of what life should be, not what it is right now. I have been working on myself to get stronger. I have and I don't want to cry that often anymore. All I feel is emptiness. I need to fill myself with happiness, joy and love. 

But right now I am getting by. Just getting by.

Monday, August 5, 2013


A lot of things happened in the short amount of time I have been off the blog radar. I have been trying to find a job like a mad lady. I finally found one, well two or three. First off I am a qualified Farmers Agent, and I am going to be an Origami Owl Sales person, and soon hopefully some thing that may pan out to be a good part time job. Going to be tight lipped about this until it comes through.

Thursday, February 7, 2013

My DIY Super Girl Cape Tutorial

My eldest daughter loves to be a super hero and wants to be a princess at the same time. So how do I combine the both?

A Purple Sparkle Super Girl Cape, of course. 

**Please Note that I took bits from other websites, so a big thank you to them for the ideas. Also a few links to them for more ideas**

Sewing Level : Any

What You need from the fabric store or your fabric stash:

1/2 yard Fleece (any color) (in this case Purple)
1/2 yard of the coordinating color in the fine material (in this case the Purple All That Glitters Fabric material)
Thread - either white or black to stitch together and the coordinating color for top stitching
A copy of the top of a baby bib pattern. I used Sew4Home's Baby bib top however any one with a wide neck will do.
Scissors, (A rotary tool and a cutting mat is good however a good pair of sharp scissors was all I needed)
Velcro in any color (I have some EZ Adjust Tabs from Joanns made by Babyville)
A tape measure
Sewing Machine

If you cut the material correct this should make one large cape (for the night) and a slightly smaller cape (for the day of course) or in my case one for the older sibling and one for the youngest.

1. I asked the oldest how long they want the cape to be (since the longest cape will be worn the most). In my case she wanted it to the top of her bottom. The measurement for her is 14 inches long. I added a few more inches for good measure so I put the total cape length at 16 inches long.

2. Fold the fleece in half and measure from the top of the fabric to the number that was determined. Note if you have heavier top fabric skip this step however the fleece does help provide weight to the lighter fabrics. Cut the fabric at the line and place the rest to the side for other projects or the second "day cape".

3. Decide what will be the bottom of cape then cut. From that cut the neck on the fold and then cut the angle of the cape. You can make it to a point or in my case I made it round at the ends.

4. With the cover fabric keep fold on the bottom and cut the material slightly over the fleece. the cover fabric will be glitter sides together.

5. PIN PIN PIN! Please have the wrong side of the fabric out and the glittery bits on the inside. Also Make sure to leave a 2 inch gap at the bottom (like the picture below) so you can turn the fabric. Also do not cut the neck hole out yet.

6. Sew, Sew and Sew

Should look like this when you are done

7. Cut out to the edge of the fleece, make small triangles to make turning easier in the neck  and straps and then turn. 

 8. Pin the gap down and top stitch with the coordinating thread of the top fabric  (I did a zig zag stitch)

9. Add the Velcro. See the tabs are a very convent shape to this project. Secure the tabs to the neck by a box and an X. I cut around the rough side to keep my daughters necks from getting scratched.

Super Girls were out with their dad at the time of the picture will update when they return!

And you are done. Simple? Okay, okay here are some great links for more super hero capes where I got some of my ideas:

Crazy Little Projects  Personalized Superhero Cape Tutorial

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

In the next week...or two

Next week there are a few major holidays coming. One is Valentines day during the week of Love (Feb 10-16; hence the change in the blog) the other is Presidents day on the 18th and Love your Pet day (Feb. 20th). I think that Love your Pet day is every day, however Hallmark has not cornered that market yet so truly pet owners own that day.

During the Week Of Love and Love Your Pet Day, I will have the opportunity to review and give away the brand new Jim Henson's Pajanimals DVD "Pajanimals Playdate" By the Jim Henson Company. Yes the same that can be found on Sprout TV (online)! The DVD is on sale now and available at NCircle Entertainment and Amazon (It's only $9.99 USD). So stay tuned and I will leave you with a song from The PaJanimals themselves.

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

How to teach love

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How do you teach love to your children when you are struggling to love yourself? That is my challenge right now. I have to teach two little ones that are looking to me to show them how to love themselves when I am knee deep in self doubt and self pity.

I am trying to make a better life for myself by keeping a roof over my head and my small kids, food on the table, clothes on their backs, and being there for them emotionally is priority one right now.

My needs and wants are second to the priorities I have listed above, however that doesn't show my kids anything about loving oneself because with little kids you need to lead by example. Self love and care is something that is a big thing for me. I wasn't taught that by my mother unless guilt trips, self loathing, self destruction is healthy. I have learned that way of life is not a path I want to follow.

However I look at myself and that is the path I have been following and I hate do not like what I am teaching my kids.

I have to put my priorities first when they are here and when they aren't. I have to find a way to motivate the heck out of me because if I don't I will be in the same place as I am now next year writing about the same issues and I feel like I am a failure. And that is NOT what I want to teach them.

So this year is all about learning with them to love the self and others the way we want to be treated. I don't want to be a welcome mat and I don't want to be a hard butt either. I am trying to find the line in which I can be who I am and still show them that self love is important and necessary for a healthy life.

Is there anything you all do that helps remind you to love your self with out books or people everyday to remind you about things that need to be done?