Windows in My life

Friday, January 11, 2013

Day 11 of January

Wow steady blog posting now for almost a week is a record of mine. I hope that it becomes more and more of a habit due to my new awesome glasses. I have hopes that it will help because now I can look at the screen more with less tired eyes and no feeling in my head that it will explode after 20 minutes of looking at "normal" fonts on the internet.

I don't know what this year will give me however I hope to post more on a regular basis now that I have more sight and things to actually craft and show the world. I am thinking of things yet I don't want to bore you reading the same old same old. I may follow a more bohemian approach to blogging than the more formulaic and popular blogs out there, however I am going to try to make this blog an interesting one. 

Thursday, January 10, 2013

I can see!

I got new glasses yesterday. They are tagged with the Chanel brand so I feel I treated myself. They have the CC's on the side and look dashing on me. They are also bi-focal. The second I put them on I could see with out my head exploding.

I don't know when I am going to get my next pair so I need to treat them with the utmost care. Next year I may get sunglasses if there isn't a reason why I should get a new pair or even if I get new insurance.

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Looking for a job is...

Harder than finding a liberal in Texas.

I have been looking for a few months and it feels like years. I have hit up every employment agency in the area, dropped my resume off at every place that I could think of and more. I have also tried to go into business myself with little success. Hence the Etsy shop and I am gearing up to do the Makers Fair and a few local farmers markets this year. Hopefully to pay for some of the debt I am in.

However craft fairs and farmers markets are not a steady source of income, so I am still looking for a more stable job. I know its going to take time however I thought it would be instantaneous because of my credentials. Though I think half the nation right now is saying the same thing.

Any more leads that I haven't thought of?

Monday, January 7, 2013

Ouch! My first pin cushion and tutorial

There are many times when I need a helping hand for straight pins and having two little active girls at my feet I can't have a standard pin cushion because small hands get into so many things.

Two nights ago I took a scrap that I had made a month ago and added some elastic took me less than 10 minutes. It is a little loose because I didn't measure the elastic correctly and the first one always comes out wonky.

What you will need for this project:
1. Two pieces of  scrap material 8 inches long by 4 inches wide
2. One piece of scrap interfacing or batting (thickness is up to you) with the same measurement as above
3. One piece of elastic (I have the 1 and 1/4 inch pictured above) this measurement isn't precise due to it needing to fit your wrist. Just make sure to make the elastic is not cutting off your blood supply when you put it on!
4. Thread, Sewing Machine and pins

Start by making a sandwich of the cut scraps and interfacing making sure that the two scrap patterns are facing each other and the interfacing is on top of one of the pieces of material.

Pin it in place and then sew with a 1/4 inch seam around the piece leaving a 2 inch gap on one side of the long side denoting by two pins where to start and finish. Back stitch a bit to lock the stitches in and clip the corners and turn out and iron down the sandwich for the nice edge and seam for the top stitch.

Next top stitch the sandwich closed.

Wait wait I hear you are saying "what about the elastic?" I am getting to that point so hold on.

With the sandwich closed fold it half the long way and add the elastic and pin it to the sandwich ends and sew the elastic to the ends and back stitch (the first end will be easier than the second end).

If you want you could close the open side, however I left mine open so I could have some where to stash a safety pin or two.

All done.

Sunday, January 6, 2013

Starting to get crafty

Getting everything I need for the Spring deadline of the farmer's market is exhausting. I need to buckle down and start to get serious on what I need to make. I need to have a stitch and B$;(@ party to help. The items below are some of the things I would like to sell. Any more suggestions would be helpful!

Friday, January 4, 2013

I am making appliques! *update*

Not bad for my first appliqué and without stabilizer #nexttim... on Twitpic
My first applique (rookie still)
I have been wanting to make cute clothes for my daughters and other items to sell for my ETSY shop Made by @AVPH Recently, I bought a pattern for a shirt bib for my baby girl Grace and it had some great designs for appliques and I have a lot of material that can be used for them so I am trying my hand at it. Pictures coming soon of the appliques and the finished products.

Sunday, December 23, 2012

I cried

I cried at the movie Emma. I have watched the movie before and I don't remember crying at the end of the movie so much, how she found her "Mr. Knightly." I thought I found my Mr. Knightly too. He was a great guy. I valued his opinion more than life itself. I took his opinion in and made a decision based on his thoughts. He made me laugh and cried at the sappy parts when I couldn't cry in the movie theater, he made me feel like I could do anything because he had that much value in me.

He didn't see it that way. I guess he didn't want to see it that way. For months I have tried to think of reasons why he would leave the way he did. I think he was scared, but I can only assume. He got a lawyer and not so kindly handed me divorce papers. I guess my Mr. Knightly wasn't so knight in shining armor after all. It only pains me that it has to be at the expense of two children that had only the hopes of having a stable first family like their friends and now have to know two houses. Now have to know a life of reality.

My heart aches at the facts faced before me. That I am no longer a wife. That he has left and will never return as my husband, only the father of my children. No longer will I laugh at the jokes he tells the same. No longer will the value of what he says about my life matter to me as much as it did before.

He made it this way. He made a unilateral decision that effected everyone and tries to blame me in every way. No longer will I cry about this situation that he put me in. No longer will I put him first in my life. So many have asked why did I want him back. It was for the two little girls that have half his last name. They deserve to know a happy and loving home with the same parents living in the house.

However they should have both parents happy and in love with some one that truly cares for each other. Not in a loveless marriage filled with hate and spite. I loved the man I married. I do not love what he has done and nor will I love or look at him in the same way again.

I first have to find it in my heart to love myself more than I do right now and I see that. I have to love my two little girls. The guy that comes into my life will have to love me and the girls as well. He has to be strong and be able to tell me the truth about everything.