Windows in My life

Tuesday, November 7, 2017

Feeling like

Feeling like I can explode. With the new round of meds coursing through my body, I am finding it hard to sleep. Waking up at 3:30 am thinking that its 4 or 5 am bites. Even with the cover of darkness all I can think about is my life.

What have I done, accomplished, impacted on some one besides the fears of my kids. They are the driving force to why I want to change. I don't have the luxury of my actions impacting just myself. I would love to have a life where I can buy my kids things when they ask and they have been good. To say Sure we can go to a vacation spot with out hinging on the account that I will never get. I feel like I am completely under water and there is no way out. I need my kids to be happy and not worry about me.

I've taken action on the account.