Panic attacks, feelings of isolation in a whole world of people, the feeling of disappointment at every failed friendship or relationship.
The people that I thought are my friends haven't called to find out if I am ok since taking a break from Facebook and only going on it once or twice a day to play a game. They seem to not care. Just the pure fact that out of the over 100 people that call themselves my friends, two to three really check up on me.
Life is a dream for most. However people like me its becoming a nightmare that I can't wake up from. I fear that the littles will take what I show them and live the nightmare over and over and over again.
I have friends that say call me anytime and then we can talk. I don't know if I do talk; they'll get frightened and think I am too crazy, well if they are reading this now I guess the cat's out of the bag, and run away and never come back.
At least my cats try and comfort me. I say try because there is only so much a cat can do before it needs to get up and walk away. I guess since they are house cats, they can't walk away too far away.