Windows in My life

Thursday, June 12, 2014

My Oldest is 5

5 years ago today, well at 3;52 am, I became a mommy to a beautiful baby girl named Arabella. 9lbs 13 oz, 21.5 inches long. 2.5 weeks over due, 36 hrs of induced labor and then an emergency C-Section.

I think motherhood starts the moment a woman sees the two lines on a pregnancy test. Confirms it with the doctors and it syncs into the brain.  Well enough about me. Onto the next year. I hope I make it.

Monday, June 2, 2014

Post weekend blues

I forgot how busy one can get with birthdays, social engagements, and just enjoying downtime with the littles.

What I didn't like is how awkward I felt with all the couples around and how the parents would say the required hello and then go away. Then when we went to Bella's friends house, my "friends" were stepping around certain things with me, I knew they would but it still felt forced and stiff, not like it was before the X and I split.

Some day I will have some one by my side, so I won't be that socially awkward around my couple friends. He will be handsome and knock everyone's socks off with how nice he treats me and the girls. How the married ladies would swoon to me and ask if he is really mine and I will with out hesitation say YES.

Just takes time and I need to keep on going with my fantasies.

Just hate the post weekend blues when I had such an awesome time with the littes.